^^^^ My new hobby. ^^^^

I've been battling this whole "professional musician" thing for a while now. It's a weird concept when it comes to playing in a church setting.

Mainly because the argument can go both ways. I've been trying to wrap my head around it for quite some time now. A year-and-a-half to be exact. The first weekend that I lived in Minneapolis, I got a phone call. "Hey Matt, this is 'so-and-so' from 'so-and-so' church... I need a bassist tomorrow morning, and someone recommended you. We'll pay you $100 for your time."

My first thought was: "Sweet... an easy $100."

I've been playing at random churches ever since then. Some more frequently than others. Granted, it's FANTASTIC getting paid for doing something that I love. However, I've realized that I enjoy it less and less. Some days, worship seems more like a "job" than something I truly enjoy. I've been noticing mostly in the last few months.

Tonight was it. I was playing at a church, and I realized that I didn't even enjoy it. I just wanted to "git-r-done" and get out. I've started playing for all the wrong reasons. I've turned into something that I don't necessarily like. I'm "that guy."

Crap.

So, I'm taking a break for a while. Granted, I'll play off the dates that I'm scheduled at various places; but I think I need to take a little bit of a break... get on track... get my heart in the right place.

Umm... the end?