"Carpe Omnia"

I've been thinking about a lot of things lately. One of which is this spiritual... "funk" I've been in. Now, as a bass player, "funk" is usually a good thing. So, to clarify, I'm not talking about the Parliament "We Got the Funk" kind of funk - more like "What is that funky smell??!??" kind.

I've had Psalm 51 in my head for the last few months - with an emphasis on the first half of 51:12.

"Restore to me the joy of Your salvation..."
Thinking back, I don't know that I can distinctly remember my "salvation moment." So when I think about, and reflect on this verse - I'm stuck with this question of what that joy really is. Have I truly experienced it? If I have, why can't I remember it? If I haven't... am I not saved.

I'm saved. That's not really the question. It's just the query of what this "joy" really is. What it looks like... what it smells like? I mean we, as Christians are supposed to be the fragrance of life and knowledge of Him, are we not?

After 20 years, I'm still trying to figure out this whole "Christian" thing. I feel that's not normal; but do we ever REALLY figure it out?


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