This and That.

I've had a lot on my mind lately. Mostly things involving music and ministry. I went to a concert tonight and, well... it all came together.

I've come to the conclusion that musicians... bands have to make a decision at some point in their careers. Should this be a career... or a ministry? Most bands today seem to say "this" and do "that."

There are so many up-and-coming artists in the CMI that started out with the goal of a career... but tagged on "ministry" to get into more churches, more camps, more youth groups, etc. They do "that." They're the deceivers... the fakers... the false. They're the ones that use the Christian music scene as a means to play music for a living. To "make it." The ministry is a sideshow. Their end goal is to get signed, play music, get paid... the ministry isn't something they really care about; but it helps them sell albums. Their lifestyles don't match up with what they sing (or preach) about. They're doing it for their own glory, saying it's for God's.

However, there are those that actually do "this." They're the ones who just say "I'm doing music because I enjoy it." Perhaps they are called to be a musician and minister through music. Yes, they want lives to be affected by what they do. No, they're not advertising that fact. They don't use their faith as a selling tool. They do music to do music. They don't have alterior motives. They're honest. They're the bands that you know are Christians; but they don't run around screaming "I LOVE JESUS!!!!!" You know they love Jesus by the way they act... their words... their heart.


Maybe I'm way out in left field; but I call it like I see it.


So often, I find myself looking for a way to make that "perfect mesh" of the two. To somehow incorporate all of my musical aspirations into my life, ministering to others along the way. I've deceived myself and others. My music, as much as I want it to be, is not my ministry.

My life is.



Music is just a part of my life. A part... not a whole.


(I apologize if this makes absolutely no sense whatsoever. It's 4 AM. cut me some slack).